Posts tagged personal

• I graduated from college, so that was pretty cool.  I can’t believe that I have a bachelor’s degree.
• I am now an AmeriCorps member at the organization I’ve wanted to work for.  The lady told me in the middle of my interview that she was going to accept me, so that was funny.  And then I got my acceptance packet before I left, so this summer I’ll be working with inner-city kiddos.  I will possibly extend my term through the year depending on how things go.  I have my first site shadow tomorrow.
• I start classes at West Chester in the fall. I will be a certified teacher in a year and a half. :-)
• I want to take up some new hobbies, like yoga, or a pottery class.
• I am a little nervous about making friends and rebuilding my life here.

1.  I got my hair trimmed.  It looks awful.  I want to hide in a box until it grows.  Like, I seriously look like a man with chipmunk cheeks.

2.  My roommate has gone insane.  I literally lock the door to my bedroom when I’m home because I’m afraid she is going to stab me.

3.  I got a second interview with Americorps, so apparently my first interview went well.

4. I am counting down the days until I can have a beach weekend with my girls.

1.  Marriage Prospects.  You know what I’m saying.  Let’s be honest, ladies, and admit what we are all thinking.  I would just like someone nice to buy me dinner.  Or tell me I’m pretty, or take me to a baseball game, or tell me about his cat.  I don’t know. But, alas, I’m still on this campus where guys generally refuse to look at me, so I have to wait until I move home where at the very least drunk guys think I’m attractive.

2. A living wage.  FACT: Apparently jobs don’t pay you money anymore— just ask anyone who is graduating.  But, I really want to be independent.  I want to pay my bills.  I want to be able to rent an apartment and eat more than popcorn on a daily basis.  I would also like to go to graduate school, so that I can realize my dreams of being a superhero teacher.

3. A break. I want to sleep sometime before next year.  I want to lay on a beach and read a book… Or swim for an entire day.

4.  A baby.  Nothing makes you want a family more than the prospect of graduating and starting a new life all on your own.  I’m a 22 year old woman, of COURSE I want a baby. I’m biologically programmed to do so…  But, sometime in the next three years would be nice… And no that is not rushing, thanks.

I am going to do what makes me happy, and right now jumping into catechetics is making me anything but happy.  I felt for a while that this was where I was being called, but now I find myself panicking when I think about the rest of my life.  I think that I am good at it, and maybe I will come back to it, but I need a break.  So, while this opportunity I have to spend my next two years of my life in Rhode Island is really wonderful, I don’t think I am going to take it.  I want to teach.  I want to work with kids who come from struggling families.  I want to put my passion for education into action.  I want to extend myself beyond just theology.  So, what am I going to do?  I don’t know.  Graduate school at home is on the table right now.  And I am feeling pretty good about that.

I have a meeting with a department head at a school near home on Monday and I am oddly excited.  I was never this excited about Catechetics, which makes me think that maybe this is what I’m supposed to do.  So, this internal struggle may soon be coming to an end.  And I am glad.

Me.

I am just sick of being shipped all over the country.  I want to get settled somewhere already.

The biggest “screw you” of a day ever.

but I sometimes wish my school wasn’t super biased politically and would show us both sides.  I mean, Jesus wasn’t Republican.

I will not vote for a pro-choice candidate, but I want to see all the issues presented in an unbiased way.

1. I really want to pick a fight right now.  Like, I was kind of hoping that when I washed my roommate’s dishes (AGAIN) that they would break, or she would nitpick the way that I washed them so that I could make passive aggressive comments about how she should wash her dishes herself… and not just when she needs to use one and they’re all dirty.

2.  I am exhausted.  I have had three tests and two days and haven’t had a lot of time to study.  I applied to grad school this weekend, and I spent my entire Saturday at a mandatory seminar.  So, basically sleeping time has become study time.

3. I am breaking out.  I probably should take my medicine so that my hormones stop being so crazy, but that would require washing my roommate’s dishes and I haven’t felt like doing that.  Except I finally broke down and did it.  Because she was never going to wash them.  But now I don’t want to dirty a cup since I washed everything and it took forever because things were burned into the pans….

4.  I ate a bagel for dinner tonight.  And I was too tired to ask for the cream cheese I paid for, so I ate it with butter.  That is so not even dinner.  I probably should’ve eaten a vegetable today.  It would have required doing the dishes that I was protesting.

5. I am going to bed.  This has been my griping sesh.

My facebook has been temporarily deactivated.  Basically I’m off of facebook until I find a job.  There isn’t anything bad on there, but I’m just paranoid that things could be misconstrued. 

That’s right.  She even added a period to the end of that ambiguous and nerve racking request.  I. thought. someone. died.

That is what my life comes down to.